Further Evidence

. . .that neither Sarah nor Kelly are "off" for not feeling inspired. Or at least, you're not alone in Flailing For Finding Facund Feelings; Fearing Flimsy Futility. Fuckit. I fear (now i can't NOT use f-words) that this time should be when i'm MOST introspective, or spurred toward changes for the greater. . . um, anyways. besides all you guys making huge changes in your life for your carreers(mol, kel, sar, mik) , relationships (mol, sar, mik, packy), and home-bases (sar, kel, mik, again with the brother), i've just learned that my ex boyfriend is ENGAGED, and my best friend from college is PREGNANT, and my other best friend from college is deploying to IRAQ, and my sister's headed off to COLLEGE to possibly be the first graduate (if those useless older two didn't give her a bad example, grrr) . All this while I sit in my rapidly messy-ing (yes, it's a verb. to become cluttered) apartment, watching crap summer tv and cooking up unperishables. blech.

I guess what i mean is, we're all supposed to find that inspiration in ourselves. But, I'd rather leave the blame on others to be my muses.